You know when you read something and all these memories come back?
Well that is exactly what just happened. Every entry I read, I remembered that day so clearly. I remember the emotions I was feeling and the people I was with.
It makes me miss everyone I have lost, but it also puts some perspective in my life.
Most of the people I knew back then were party buddies, they were not true friends. Oddly enough, even if they weren't my true friends, they still enjoyed my company and made me feel loved when it seemed like everything was going to shit.
I'm seeing how happy and full of life I was. I had so much hope in mankind and society. I was ignorant. I guess I still am in some ways. But it's really interesting to see how little I let things affect me. Or even if it was effecting me drastically I still put a positive spin on it. Can I go back to that girl? Even if her smile was fake, she still cared about everyone. She still cared about her life.
Update:
I sound like such whiny bitch in these. What the fuck.
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